40 has arrived!!!!!

Well today is my birthday my 40th birthday! I actually am not falling apart not emotionally anyway. I am handling it very well ( I think). This past year has been a definite roller coaster to say the very least. There have been deaths, sickness and surgery. There have been job changes and kids growing up and moving on a little more! Now there have been some great changes too... new family members born and married in to the family. Wonderful job change with some amazing bosses and co workers. I guess this is normal in anyone's life. What fun would life be if everything always stayed the same!?
I have had people from my past renew friendships with me and have become new again and just as strong relationships as before! I have the most amazing people in my life. This birthday by far is better than my 30th. I was dealing with addiction and trying to put my life back together. But as the last 10 years have went by even while I was going through all that I realize now God had a big ole plan for my life..
I haven't done great things or so I think then I look at my sons and WOW... they are the best parts of me... laughter love compassion generosity. How did I get so lucky. I know my sons have been through a lot in their lives with me there for a time and while most kids that would have made them rebel and turn away we grew more open and close. I know they have a great father that has been a great foundation for them. I became very open with my sons and never tried to hide them. They suffered and deserved the truth so that is what I have tried to give them.
During all that time do you know what they did? They prayed for their mama. They loved their mama. They hugged me....I told them it was okay to be mad at me and some days they were. But now at 19 & 17 they are just amazing young
Anyway I am going to do everything I can to make this year amazing. To basically be the best me I can. I know I will fail at times that is just part of life. I will get up brush myself off and move on because my parents raised a strong woman and that is what I do. So if you were a part of my life in any way big or small good or bad thank you for what you taught me and what you brought to my life. Thank you for loving me!